I find painting a very emotional experience a lot of the time. Mark says you should always paint your masterpiece, and that's what I believe too. I want to paint something beautiful that means something to me. But I just don't have the skills. That's the simple truth. I now have the THEORY/METHOD, thanks to Mark, but I struggle a lot.
Recently I sat in front of my painting and could not understand how I could possibly paint the hair on Lucia's right side even though I'd just done the hair on her left. I actually sat down and cried. Felt absolute despair. Sometimes I have to test colors about 30 times before I get the right value and hue. I don’t understand why it is so difficult for me. Surely other people don’t find it that difficult?
Anyway a friend recommended I read The Agony and the Ecstasy by Irving Stone which is the story of Michaelangelos' life. Agony and Ecstasy sound about right, but I'd like a bit more of the ecstasy. Do other people feel this way?